Still not enough time

When my Dad told me that Lola passed away last Wednesday night I felt really sad but I can't cry because I still have not figured out my emotions. She is after all 100 years old and she deserves the rest after a life well lived. I remembered her telling me before that she is already praying for death because there is nothing more to do after so long and that she wants to be with my Lolo already. I suppose that is reason to be happy so I decided not to cry because her prayers have been answered.

However, last Saturday morning, my dear Daddy delivered the eulogy for her and this time I cried really hard. He said that he often cries during sad movies so this time, it really is time for him to cry. "Kahit na kayo maiiyak siguro king iiwan na kayo ng nanay nyo." was what he said. He added that "Matagal man ang nilagi nya sa mundo, parang hindi pa rin ako ready na umalis sya." My Dad was with my Lola for a very long time but in the end, he realized it was still not enough time. He said it never will be enough buti na lang daw he made the most out of it.

Yes Dad, I took note of what you said :)